constant

In September my Dad was showing me pictures from their vacation.

Each day he took a picture of the sunrise and during the slide show he said:

And the sun rose on that day too.

Maybe it's where my heart and mind has been lately

but him saying that startled me.

I literally wanted to dissolve then and there.

I have been through the darkest of times lately

and to notice something so simple and so simply taking for granted

really encouraged me.

A constant.

Every good and perfect gift is from above,

coming down from the Father of lights

with whom there is variation or shadow due to change.

James 1:17

Obviously my Dad has no idea how dramatically that statement affected me.

{in}dependent

I learned something new about myself today.

My life is in the midst of some chaos totally out of my control

but for the first time in years I am independent.

I find a lot of comfort in that.

I realized I'm much more comfortable with change

when I'm independent.

Then I realized

I am my fracking grandmother.

{This is finally a good thing in my eyes}